“I Have So Much Love to Give”: Young Women and Self-flattery (Reprint)

This post originally appeared April 9, 2008.

In my women’s history class yesterday, we were making our way through Lynn Phillips’ Flirting With Danger, a text about which I have written before and which I have used in class for the last several years.

Phillips talks a great deal about discourses that impact the lives of contemporary young American women. Among these is what she calls the “Love Conquers All” discourse:

The love conquers all discourse does not limit itself to the notion that long-term heterosexual relationships are necessary for women’s fulfillment in love. Indeed, it suggests that finding the right man will somehow solve all of life’s problems.

Fed by Disney movies and pop songs, magazines and movies, most girls run into the notion that love conquers all early on. Some fiercely resist it, of course. The discourse suggests, however, that those who most fiercely resist making romantic love a priority are fooling themselves; from Jane Austen’s time to our own, we have countless fictional heroines who are initially dismissive of love, but in the end, succumb to its all-consuming power.

My students know all this, of course. It’s not news to any group of college students that they live in a culture that tries to impose a vision of happy heterosexual fulfillment on each and every one of them. But I’ve found another aspect of the “love conquers all” discourse that Phillips largely ignores: a great many young women (usually younger than typical college-age) go through adolescence with a vast over-estimate of just how much love they have to give to the “right person”.

When I first started working with youth group kids, particularly ninth and tenth-graders, I was struck by how often I would hear the same thing from so many of the girls with whom I worked. In group discussions or in writing, many would say something more or less like this:

I have so much love to give. I’ve never been in love, not really, but I just feel like I have this huge amount of passion inside of me. If I could just find someone whom I could really trust, then I could give him (usually, it’s a him) everything I have inside of me. I know it sounds corny, but I really believe love can heal all our problems. I feel like I have enough love inside of me to change the world, if I could just find a way to let it out.

Some girl would say something like this in a group, and most of the rest would nod vigorously. Clearly, we’re not only teaching many of our girls to see romantic love as a source of the highest fulfillment, we’re somehow sending them the message that their own capacity to give love is extraordinarily potent. It makes sense, after all. We raise most girls in our culture, still, to be “people-pleasers.” By the time she’s well into puberty, your average girl has spent most of her remembered lifetime trying to please others: parents, teachers, coaches, peers. She may well have become a first-class pleaser and “praise-junkie.” If she sees herself as relatively good at pleasing mom and dad and teachers, she may imagine that when she gets into an intimate relationship, she will be magnificent as a girlfriend.

Teenage girls are renowned for their vicious self-criticism. Time and again, I’ve heard young women criticize their own appearance, their academic shortcomings, their bad habits. But those same young women will often hasten to say, if they are or have been in a relationship, “You know, I’m a pretty awesome girlfriend.” Or if they haven’t yet been in one: “I am an incredibly loving person, and I would give so much to the right guy.”

Many of us suspect, of course, that there’s a connection between this over-estimation and the “bad boy phenomenon”. After all, if you really believe you’ve got this amazing well-spring of love inside of you, so strong it has the capacity to change the world, what better way to demonstrate its power than to use it to “tame” the wild guy? After all, doctors demonstrate their craft by healing the sick, not merely keeping the already well, healthy! The “my love will change him” discourse is a powerful one, and it’s rooted less in young women’s poor judgment or self-destructiveness and more in a whopping miscalculation of their own power. A woman who believes her love will change a man may simultaneously believe she isn’t worthy of a truly nice guy and, even as she lacks vital self-worth, believe that her selflessness and her love has this capacity to redeem. In some young women, this belief in the purity and intensity of their own love borders on the Messianic.

Long-term relationships have many benefits. One of the best of those benefits is that they tend to destroy any illusion one has about one’s own unique power to heal or change another person. People can and do change, and sometimes they change with the help of a partner. But ultimately, all growth and change is an act of individual will. You can’t love an alcoholic into sobriety, or a sex addict into fidelity, or an anorexic into healthy eating. No human love is strong enough to conquer another’s addiction or to heal the hurt of a terrible past. That kind of healing is an inside job, though others may help; the only love I’ve found that has that kind of capacity to heal is not a mother’s or a lover’s but that of God Herself. Too often, we give ourselves far too little credit for our own ability to change — and we give ourselves far too much credit for our ability to change others.

Feminism , if it stands for anything, stands against the notion that a heterosexual relationship is the sine qua non of each woman’s happiness. Those of us who teach and write and mentor from a feminist perspective almost always do a good job of stressing that simple message that you “don’t need a man to be happy.” Most of us, of course, think that a feminist perspective actually improves the quality of our romantic connections, whoever they are with. But when we talk to our “younger sisters” about sexual relationships through a feminist lens, we need also to have this conversation about love. The greatest attribute that we have may well be our capacity to love, but that love, as powerful as it may seem to us, has its limits. Our bodies and our hearts do not have the capacity to change romantic partners or solve their problems for them. Our hands, however, backed up by willing hearts, can do much to make the world a better place. We do well to remind our younger sisters and ourselves about what love can, and cannot do.

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9 thoughts on ““I Have So Much Love to Give”: Young Women and Self-flattery (Reprint)

  1. “… But that of God Herself”

    I love that! You’re a rebel on so many levels Hugo.

  2. i remember experiencing the same feeling as a child and adolescent. but i have been in love and back out of it one serious time and and the feeling of an immense well of love inside me has been fairly constant though out. what has changed is how i understand it. i think that young girls are taught very much that passion and fulfillment is about the one your with, that their lives are a great romance waiting to be played out. but in what i consider my more mature understanding of love, i feel that romance is only one dimension of it. that great core of passionate energy that i have always felt is just no more or less than my own passion for life, loved ones and all kinds of things. its not surprising that as a kid who believed the fairy tale schematic for living life, that i might focus that energy and passion into a romantic ideal. i hope this explanation makes sense, its a pretty tricky feeling to express

  3. Thank you for this post as well! Emma, I hear you.

    I think I might also suggest that yong men must also be taught that they must not rely on the compassion/passion of women to be the only healing force in their lives. I think that over all this post speaks to how gender roles can lead to not enough self love. I hope that the young women who feel they have so much love to give find that they are able to give a significant amount of that love to themselves.

  4. I very much enjoyed your post. The part where you say, “Bu the time she’s well into puberty, your average girl has spent most of her remembered lifetime trying to please others: parents, teachers, coaches, peers. She may well have become a first-class pleaser and “praise-junkie.” If she sees herself as relatively good at pleasing mom and dad and teachers, she may imagine that when she gets into an intimate relationship, she will be magnificent as a girlfriend.” holds very true to what I see with my eating disordered women clients.

    It’s what they have been taught and those thoughts tend to give them false beliefs.

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