The Master’s Tools: feminism and titles on campus

I got an email last week from Abby (not her real name):

I work in a Feminist Center on my campus and we have recently welcomed a new director to our center. Upon meeting her I used her first name not even thinking about it, and was corrected by a different person who told me she would prefer me to address her as Dr. so and so.

As we work in a feminist center that focuses on outreach and education about feminist issues and ideals to students, I found her request to be addressed as Dr. to be anti-feminist and pompous. Incredibly pompous. I wouldn’t be so bothered if I worked in a center that didn’t focus on feminist ideals. It creates a very clear hierarchy, and thus who’s opinions and views are valued more – hers. It clearly has nothing to do with formality, as she is not going around calling us student workers Ms. and Mr. so and so. It has everything to do with her need for people to toot her horn. I understand she worked hard for a Ph.D, but if she really needs anyone and everyone to keep congratulating her on it by way of calling her Dr., that’s plainly arrogant.

What it says to me is: I’m a better feminist than you because I have a Ph.D. And I have a Ph.D because I had the money and the means to get one. I find all of if very reflective of her feminist philosophies. It may seem harsh, but I really question whether I can consider her a feminist because of it. It just goes against so many feminist principles.

There are a pair of conflicting ideals that appear in response to Abby’s note.

On the one hand, we live in a world where the Ph.D. (and other terminal degrees) are important markers of accomplishment. Some people feel that it’s vitally important for members of groups who have not traditionally earned such degrees (meaning anyone other than white men) to display them proudly in order to send an inspirational message. Abby’s director may believe that young women not only need to see older women with Ph.Ds, they need to see those women addressed with the kind of respect that was once reserved only for men.

And of course Ph.D.s take money. They also take sacrifice, often the sacrifice of a larger community (like spouses and parents). To refuse to use the title, some folks think, is to discount the sacrifices others made so that one member of the family could earn a Ph.D. It’s one thing to be falsely modest on your behalf, another thing altogether to be falsely modest on behalf of those who helped you along the way. Parents have long bragged about their “son, the doctor”. Isn’t it important that they be able to brag about their “daughter, the doctor” as well?

I’ve written before of my personal disdain for the title “doctor”, and my refusal to hang my diplomas on the wall. But I come from an academic family; both my parents, as well as my brother, have doctorates. My paternal grandmother earned her Ph.D. at the University of Vienna in the 1920s. We were raised to see diplomas on the wall or an insistence on titles as vulgar ostentation, evidence of “trying too hard” or “showing off.” But that’s a position of privilege rather than a universal truth, and I freely acknowledge the distinction. Those who are the first in their families to earn something — and those who are particularly mindful about setting an example to those they teach or mentor — may find that using or displaying those titles are essential ways of honoring one generation and inspiring another.

In an academic setting, where the professor has the gradebook and the student doesn’t, the use of first names may suggest a false equality. It may even strike some people as a disingenuous attempt to cover up the power differential. Using the term “doctor” may seem more honest under such circumstances. Of course, the term “professor” (which, used generally, can encompass those with and without Ph.Ds) solves this problem neatly.

But Abby has a point about the danger of hierarchies. Feminism at its best is more than just giving women an opportunity to compete in traditionally male spaces by traditionally male rules. It’s about changing those rules and reimagining those spaces. Most of us know the oft-quoted line from Audre Lorde: “The master’s tools will never dismantle the master’s house.” An insistence on titles certainly smacks of the “master’s tools.” It does privilege one kind of knowledge (the sort that comes from writing a dissertation and having the money for grad school) over other kinds of knowledge. Trust me, I have many colleagues who don’t have a Ph.D. who’ve taught me far more about the business of teaching than my fellow holders of the doctorate.

While it might be fine to use titles as a sign of respect for a particular kind of sacrifice, insisting that the title “doctor” be used for Ph.D. holders strikes me as it strikes Abby: incompatible with a feminist commitment to the kind of egalitarian values one might expect in a campus women’s center. A female professor who wishes to be addressed as “doctor” in a classroom setting is one thing; to expect that in an explicitly feminist space like the Women’s Resource Center is something altogether different. A Women’s Resource Center should be a place where traditional campus hierarchies are called into question, where the focus is as much on nurturing the spirit as it is on disciplining the mind. There’s no inconsistency in being “Jane” when one is in the campus WRC, and asking to be called “Dr. Doe” in a more explicitly academic setting. And if I were able to speak to Abby’s campus director, that’s the advice I’d give.

It’s a dangerous thing to be too enchanted with the master’s tools.

Top Ten Films of 2010

I have no idea when I’m going to get around to seeing “True Grit”, so with what my friends tell me is a glaring exception, here’s my top ten movie list of the year. And I’m not kidding about my fondness for #10. Several of these films I saw on airplanes or on screeners rather than in theaters, and that does tend to impact the experience.

And I was bored by Inception. Sorry.

Share yours in the comments.

1. Black Swan
2. The King’s Speech
3. Blue Valentine
4. The Fighter
5. The Kids are Alright
6. The Social Network
7. The Ghostwriter
8. The Town
9. 127 Hours
10. Life as We Know It

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Good men and foreskin restoration

Somehow, it always comes back to penises.

Laura Novak has a great piece up at The Good Men Project Magazine today: The Foreskin Renaissance. It’s about the foreskin restoration movement (which has ancient roots, for example in Jewish philo-Hellenism), and about the wrinkle (sorry) that this trend adds to the ongoing and intense circumcision debate.

I’m pleased Novak quotes me as saying “Dude, get over yourself.” My students, especially in my men and masculinity course, tend to hear that a lot.

Here’s the original 2006 post I wrote about getting circumcised as an adult, and here’s the 2009 piece from New York Magazine on my story.

King and the Sanger Award

On Martin Luther King’s birthday, it’s worth remembering that among many other things, the late civil rights icon was a champion of reproductive justice. King received the inaugural Margaret Sanger Award from Planned Parenthood in 1966. Sanger, the founder of Planned Parenthood, died four months after King’s acceptance of the award that bore her name.

Coretta Scott King accepted the prize on her husband’s behalf, and read a speech of his. It concluded:

…we are natural allies of those who seek to inject any form of planning in our society that enriches life and guarantees the right to exist in freedom and dignity.

For these constructive movements we are prepared to give our energies and consistent support; because in the need for family planning, Negro and white have a common bond; and together we can and should unite our strength for the wise preservation, not of races in general, but of the one race we all constitute — the human race.

Coretta added her own words about Sanger:

‘I am proud tonight to say a word in behalf of your mentor, and the person who symbolizes the ideas of this organization, Margaret Sanger. Because of her dedication, her deep convictions, and for her suffering for what she believed in, I would like to say that I am proud to be a woman tonight.”

And let’s be clear on our history: Planned Parenthood was passionately committed to abortion access long before Dr. King was honored. King would have known that by 1966, Planned Parenthood was headed by Alan Guttmacher, president of the organization from 1962-74 and a tireless and very public advocate for the right of women to terminate unwanted pregnancies.

Dr. King was not silent on the issue of abortion and birth control. His enthusiastic endorsement of Planned Parenthood and his praise for Margaret Sanger made clear his deep and passionate commitment to a full-range of reproductive services for everyone.

Remember that next time someone tries to remake Dr. King into a conservative.

“In essentials, unity…” answering a 16 year-old’s question about what feminism really is

I get a lot of emails, both from my own students and from blog readers, that sound like this one which came in yesterday from “Annabella”:

I’m 16, and I’ve called myself a feminist since the 6th grade. But lately I feel as though I’ve been identifying with a movement that I don’t actually share views with. people say that all that being a feminist means is that you believe in women’s equality, but people (online, as that’s the only contact with feminists I have) act like it truly requires much more than that. The other day I saw a link for a letter which said, among other things, that prisons were so corrupted that we should abolish them all together, and that strengthening anti-domestic violence laws was selfish or something because of how it would affect the black community. I understand that there is racism, but abolishing prisons seems to me to be insane. What would we replace it with? People also act like getting married is anti-feminist, and that it disrespects gay people. They say that heterosexual couples should not get married until gay people should get married. I really do wish gay people could get married, but why can’t I exercise that right if I wish? Not getting married won’t change anything. People also say disparaging things about religious people, specifically Christians. Some of the blogs are painful to read, as a Catholic. I understand the church has made a lot of mistakes, and that it is very sexist, but is that my fault, and does it make me stupid that I’m not an atheist? I don’t think it does.

I try to remind myself of all the sexism in our society, but every time I do I come across someone saying something like “make-up is a demonstration of patriarchy’s pyramid of oppression and it’s wrong for women to wear it.” And I think that’s just their brand of feminism, but I can’t help but be reminded of the conservative’s claim that feminism has gone too far. It seems like a good point to me. What do you think?

Am I a feminist?

Yes, Annabella, you are a feminist. And do let me recommend the marvelous Feminism 101 blog for more help.

Two things are important to remember. First, there is no agency that credentials feminists. No one — not a blogger, not a professor, not a politician — has the final say on who is and isn’t a feminist. Second, there are certain things that unite all feminists, chiefly a commitment to the struggle to bring about enduring equality between men and women. To be a feminist, you need to be committed to equality — but within the feminist movement, there have always been and will continue to be disagreements about what equality ought to entail.

For example, I belong to the “liberal” (rather than radical) feminist tradition. In the liberal tradition, we are particularly concerned with issues of personal choice, and with expanding access to choices. For many liberals, choice is a very high good; in other words, to some of us in the feminist camp, we care more about your freedom to choose than what it is you are choosing. For example, Annabella, taking a husband’s last name. Liberal feminists may take a dim view of a woman taking her husband’s last name following a heterosexual marriage, but they still believe it is a choice a feminist could make. Liberal feminists would be concerned with ensuring that the choice to take the name was made based on desire rather than duress. Not every action need be subjected to an incapacitating level of analysis!

As for the issue of make-up, radicals do tend to see the focus on beauty as inherently oppressive. Other feminists are less sure. The position that many liberal feminists take is that beauty and fashion are more complex than our radical friends imagine; what can be oppressive can also be redemptive. Many of us feel that wanting to be attractive and wanting to look good are normal human wants, and that the feminist approach to fashion should be to broaden the spectrum of what is considered beautiful rather than seeing the pursuit of beauty as invariably anti-feminist.

These arguments rage in the blogosphere over things like make-up, or waxing, or the burqa, and even over heterosexual intercourse. The same divide shows up each time. One camp (usually the radical camp) says that the thing itself (make-up, vagina-over-penis sex, waxing) is inherently oppressive. The other side generally says, “Gosh, that’s not always true: what a woman does usually matters less than why she’s doing it, and how it makes her feel.” When it gets nasty, the radicals accuse the liberals of bourgeois navel gazing, and we liberals accuse the radicals of a crude essentialism that ignores the freedom of the individual. And so it goes on and on. Continue reading

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Remembering Northridge

At 4:31 in the morning, seventeen years ago today, I was jolted out of bed — along with millions of my fellow Angelenos — by the strongest earthquake I’ve felt in my lifetime. The Northridge temblor killed more than sixty, did billions of dollars in damage, and left lasting scars across what weather forecasters (and very few others) call “the southland.”

In January 1994, I had just begun my second semester of teaching at Pasadena City College. Having passed my qualifying exams a few months earlier, I was busy researching my doctoral dissertation. I was sober, though I had a few spectacular relapses in my future. And I was engaged to be married for the second time (to Sara, whom I wrote about here.) Sara lived in Brentwood on Bundy Drive, 200 yards away from where the Simpson murders would take place later that same year. Normally, I slept over on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights only; since Monday, January 17 was the Martin Luther King holiday, we planned to stay in bed and then wander down the street for brunch.

Like most people who live in quake-prone areas, when the shaking started, I woke and lay there, waiting to see if it would get stronger. All my life, I’ve felt little rumbles that never intensified into something big. The strongest temblor I’d felt until this point had been the May 1983 Coalinga quake. But seventeen January 17ths ago, the shaking got stronger and louder. Sara and I jumped from bed and ran to the doorway. The shaking got more violent; on the second floor of her pre-war apartment building, it felt as if a giant was shaking the structure apart. I saw the TV fly off a bureau, exploding on the floor; I heard the china dropping from kitchen cabinets. And then I heard nothing but a roar unlike anything I’ve ever heard. I shouted at Sara, “I love you”, certain that those were my last words. “I love you too”, she yelled. We held each other and held on.

The shaking stopped. I, who have a mild but exasperating habit of getting vasovagal syncope at the worst times, got dizzy and crumpled to the floor, passing out. Once she was sure I was still alive, Sara pulled on her sweats and her boots, grabbed a flashlight, and ran to rescue her ninety-something neighbor. I joined her fifteen minutes later, when I could stand again.

My apartment, a mile away, was shattered. The building stood and was still occupable, but I too had lost a television and all my dishes. A huge bookcase had fallen on my bed, making me very grateful I had spent the night at my fiancée’s. Since we were engaged to be married, lots of people in our families decided that we should register for replacement china early; since we were going to be husband and wife, why re-purchase two sets? We got a new china set — or rather, Sara did, as she was the one who kept the earthquake replacement gifts after our divorce two and a half years later. I finally bought my earthquake earthenware in the fall of 1996, later than anyone else whom I knew.

The Northridge quake was a tragedy. And it came at a time when Los Angeles seemed to be so vulnerable to tragedies. It had been less than two years since the Rodney King riots, and in between, we’d had the devastating fires of October 1993. The joke that went around in those days was that L.A. did have four seasons: fire, flood, earthquake and riot. Even as the economy was slowly getting better, in the early to mid 1990s, there was an apocalyptic scent on the jasmine-infused breeze of my adopted home.

But I also have fond memories of that era. I remember the community spirit, at least in my extended circle of twenty-somethings (most of whom were fellow UCLA grad students or fellow members of Twelve Step programs.) Mandatory curfews were in place after both the riots and the quake, and with police (and National Guard) on the streets, we arranged slumber parties and clean-up parties. Lots of food and laughter. Lots of sex, too — proximity to death and destruction can so often be an aphrodisiac. Sara and I, who had a very troubled relationship, were never closer than we were in the first week or so after Northridge. I remember it as a sweet and magical — if terrifying — time.

I’d like to keep the memory and not have it repeated, however. Here’s to quiet on the Inglewood, Whittier, and San Andreas faults. And here’s to the memory of those who died seventeen years ago today.

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Heat doesn’t require beauty: on “bowflex boy”, monogamy, and desire

A reader named Ryan wrote me last month in response to my reprint of this post on “bowflex boy”. I was writing to suggest that it’s possible to be drawn to an “ideal” without losing the capacity to be intensely aroused by one’s less-than-perfect partner. Ryan writes:

Your post on the Bowflex Boy touched on something that I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about. For me, attraction to other women and years of using porn have made me wonder whether I really find my girlfriend to be beautiful. I keep seeing her flaws. Often, I find other women to be prettier. That scares me, and I end up feeling ashamed and guilty. Then I question whether my girlfriend and I should be together at all.

I’m convinced that we can have a ‘Bowflex Boy’ on our walls and have it not be a big deal. That doesn’t mean we don’t love our partners. I know I don’t need my partner to measure up to some unattainable ideal. But I’m still so troubled by the negative thoughts I have about her appearance. It’s gotten to the point of being toxic. I don’t — can’t feel okay — and when it inevitably comes out in conversations with my partner, it naturally hurts her very much.

So, you talk about how we can see an ideal like the Bowflex Boy and still desire our partners. I agree that can be the case, but I don’t know how to stop being afraid. I love and do my best to respect my girlfriend, and I absolutely believe she’s beautiful. I’m working on letting go of the fantasies I used to have about the ideal relationship. . But when those unbidden thoughts come, I still doubt and I still fear. Your thoughts?

In my post, I wrote of being a college boy with an average and not particularly impressive physique who found himself having sex one night with a friend, Debbie, who had a poster of a stunningly perfect man hanging right over her bed. In post-coital conversation, I had asked why she (we had never hooked up before) would want to be with me when she had this flawless vision to look at. From the original post, Debbie’s words:

“Hugo, I like looking at beautiful bodies. He’s a gorgeous guy. But the fact that I think it’s beautiful, even the fact that I am attracted to the image, doesn’t mean that that is the only kind of man I can be attracted to…I can appreciate perfection without expecting it, and I can really be just as attracted to a normal body as to a perfect one.”

I wasn’t insulted. I was relieved. And it occurred to me, of course, that that was how I thought about my partners as well. I liked looking at sculpted, idealized bodies — but that was hardly the limit of what I was attracted to. As in so many areas of life, it’s helpful to think in terms of a spectrum of people to whom we could be attracted. The media offers us images we may or may not find beautiful, but they tend to offer us only a narrow slice of that spectrum. What we can want and what we do want is broader than we’re told.

As anyone who has been in a monogamous relationship for any length of time will assure Ryan, there will always be other people who appear more attractive than one’s partner, no matter how beautiful one’s partner is. The longer we’re with someone, the more of their ordinariness we become privileged to see. We discover the stretch marks, we smell the sleep farts and morning breath, we see the adult acne. That gritty reality can’t compete with either the airbrushed images of pornography or the well-coiffed and smartly attired people with whom we interact publicly. Add in the quarrels and struggles and mundanities that are part and parcel of any enduring committed sexual relationship, and it’s little wonder that the sex appeal of one’s partner appears to diminish over time. Continue reading

Thursday Short Poem: Sheers’ “Not Yet…”

This increasingly well-known poem by Owen Sheers is about something familiar to so many of us, that strange sensation we get when looking at photos of our parents when they were very young, before they were parents, before they were the age we are when we discover their old picture.

Not Yet My Mother

Yesterday I found a photo
of you at seventeen,
holding a horse and smiling,
not yet my mother.

The tight riding hat hid your hair,
and your legs were still the long shins of a boy’s.
You held the horse by the halter,
your hand a fist under its huge jaw.

The blown trees were still in the background
and the sky was grained by the old film stock,
but what caught me was your face,
which was mine.

And I thought, just for a second, that you were me.
But then I saw the woman’s jacket,
nipped at the waist, the ballooned jodhpurs,
and of course the date, scratched in the corner.

All of which told me again,
that this was you at seventeen, holding a horse
and smiling, not yet my mother,
although I was clearly already your child.

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Myths of female frailty, and what happens when the truth comes out

From September 2009

I posted earlier this year against the “myth of female frailty” and the lie that “one mistake will ruin your life”. The topic of that myth arose again this week when I met with one of my former All Saints youth group kids, “Holly.”

Holly, whom I’ve known since she was in eighth grade, is now headed into her senior year of high school; she’s 17. When I first met Holly, and indeed for the next several years, Holly “presented” outwardly as the pretty, outgoing, poised and popular blonde whose passage through adolescence seems almost unfairly graceful. Holly was much sought after as a friend (and more) by boys and girls alike; at our Wednesday night youth group meetings, I often saw not-very-subtle attempts by kids of both sexes to sit on “Holly’s couch” and be near her.

Of course, Holly was far more than the walking embodiment of a stock American stereotype. Not only was she exceptionally bright and a particularly talented writer, her childhood had been touched by tragedy and loss to a degree that set her well apart from most of her peers. A few — a very few — of her friends got to know the depth of that loss and its impact on Holly’s life; I was one of the small group of adults to whom she also regularly turned. I watched her struggle with the disconnect between how the rest of the world perceived her and how she felt on the inside, and we talked often about her frustration with the realization that she was the object of desire, admiration, jealousy, and envy when for the most part, she felt out of place and frequently lonely. Holly’s is not an unfamiliar story — at its most extreme, call it the “Richard Cory” phenomenon after that famous Edward Arlington Robinson poem so loved by generations of misperceived adolescents.

This summer, Holly broke up with her first serious boyfriend, got her first lead in a play, and let go of a great many of her old friends. When I met with her earlier this week, her long blonde hair was mahogany brown. Despite the heat, she wasn’t wearing the short skirts that had been her trademark since junior high school. She wore corduroy pants, a t-shirt, and a vest. Not a trace of make-up on her face, but when we met at a local coffee shop, there was a sense of real happiness behind her eyes. Holly’s making changes; the outside shift reflects an inner transformation — and the brunette tresses a greater willingness to expose to the world the darker, more complex aspects of her personality. Continue reading

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